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Somebody's me

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:31:32 GMT

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That somebody's me

How, How could we go wrong?
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That somebody's me

Pretty damn beautiful song by Enrique Iglesias. It pretty much sums up how I was feeling before. I don't feel most of the longing anymore, frankly, I don't feel like I need him, or anyone anymore. Which is good, definely. This is not self-denial, neither am I trying to talk myself in or out of anything. This is how I truly feel and I must say, I am really proud of myself! :) Ok, I am still full of love and I have all the love in the world to give but, these positive regard can be generated to other important people too! Alright, you hear me girls, you will get lots of love from me! :)

Anyway, I just got home from the library. Exciting news! I was studying since 6pm or so, all the way until 2:40am. I have such amazing stamina and I should do this often, nearly daily, if I can afford the energy. This way, I will be fully prepared for the final examinations and reach the targets i set for myself. Being in the library helps because I have no distractions there, no facebook, no lj, no tv, no internet.

This should go on forever, structure and discipline! I should install some exercise somewhere as well, ok, now, that's alot of determination

Kristen Bell

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 01:45:48 GMT

I JUST SAW KIRSTEN BELL IN HEROES EPISODE FIVE!
YAY!
I LOVE BELL! :D

Gear-ed

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 15:33:44 GMT

Because I cannot screw up my life again, so I will switch myself to full gear, just like THAT. I am capable of being at full potential just like THAT and I will do so, just like THAT! So, my plans for tonight are:

130-210: Shower
210-500: Work work work

Tomorrow:
11-530: School
530-3am: Study at Law Building

Wherever you will go

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 13:29:34 GMT

Someone out there will bring me back to you. When I finally find you, you will runaway with my heart, runaway with my hopes, runaway with my love. And I will know how my life will go on and that in your heart and mind, I'll stay with you for all of time.
And I will, like how you will go everywhere I go, go wherever you will go.

Happy Birthday Sabby!

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 03:48:39 GMT

Hello Sabby,
I hope you're going to have a good celebration later, whatever Wen E has installed for you! Truthfully, I am jealous and excited for you, I think birthdays are loads of fun and I sincerely hope you enjoy this special day of yours! :)
Anyway, you've been a great friend, being there to listen when I have questions about life and council and everything else in life in general. I love listening to you mediate my thoughts, giving me counter arguments, offering me the other side of the story, a whole new perspective. :) You, the skeptic, the irony, always have something to disagree with! :P
Remember the time we were talking about the kind of boyfriends we'll like to have or eventually settle down with? Man, that was so long ago, on that fateful bus ride where we were sitting opposite each other on the way to either J8 or AMK. So long ago since we last worked together or slacked together in that dirty little room of ours. ): Growing up certainly wasn't easy but I want you to know you made such an impact in mine, and I hope too, that I created some kind of positivity in your growing up too! :)
So, back to the dream guy talk, ANY LUCK WITH KNIGHTS IN SHINING ARMOURS? ;)
Well, I sure don't! hehe.
Moving on, I hope the past year when I've been away has been good, a fulfilling one perhaps? Well, with you living your life, I have no doubts about it being fulfilling and enriching and fruitful and full of lessons, you being the role model you are! :D Hope you will hav many more such good years to come!
Once again, Happy 19th Sabby! I love you! :)
Will be back soon and promise multiple catch-ups alright! And if we can afford it, a trip somewhere? HONGKONG? :D

Love,
Kerrin

4 kg

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 03:39:11 GMT

I am feeling fat, I've been feeling fat for the longest time!
Ever since I came back from Singapore in July, I've put on 4kg. I know you think it doesn't show but I have empirical evidence here, I was 47kg and now I'm 51! Yes, I am revealing my weight to tell you I am serious and I am not pretending that I am fatter than before.
Please don't tell me "You're not fat la!", I just need this time and space to rant a little.
Ok, I will take this stressful exam period to drop 5kg!
And, yeayea, we all know realistically speaking, I'll put on a further 2.

*Spoons triple mudslide ice cream

Anything but me

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 13:36:36 GMT

I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one

Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking around rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking aound rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately